A slip of the sharp…

**Trigger Warning** I hate when I see trigger warnings. I never know if I want to stay away from the words or I am compelled to read more. I don't want to make my writing too much of a trigger, but we all have different reasons for being upset in our reading, so I thought … Continue reading A slip of the sharp…

Upside Down and all Around..

I had to get out of my house today. While I hate being in the chaos of work, I knew that I had to get myself out of the darkness and loneliness of my house. I decided to yes, come into work today!  I had nothing else to do (that wouldn't cost money or time … Continue reading Upside Down and all Around..

Weekend – lonely, depressed, tired? What?

Hell, I hate myself sometimes. I can't figure myself out and I am 51 years old!!!  One day I think I am feeling a bit more positive and the next I have slipped back in my hole. I think I feel more comfortable in my hole yjan other places, but I shouldn't be. I should … Continue reading Weekend – lonely, depressed, tired? What?

Anniversaries and depression

Today is the first day of spring. It is also my wedding anniversary. I was married 25 years ago today. I was divorced 13 years ago this May. I have been down for a few months for a variety of reasons, but today just added to the mix. I made a very regretful choice that … Continue reading Anniversaries and depression

Sleep doesn’t help a soul that’s tired…

I saw a quote with similar words about a tired soul the other day. I am so up and down in my moods I cannot take it any more. I feel so tired, but I know it's not for lack of sleep. I just get tired of fighting. Fighting for what, I do not know. … Continue reading Sleep doesn’t help a soul that’s tired…

Feeling lonely? Noooooo!

I am sitting in a breakfast place..you may know the kind..I am staying at a hotel and it is the morning free breakfast time. Thankfully the food is good but I feel so alone. But funny me I wouldn't want anyone with me unless it were one of my kids. I am dreading going to … Continue reading Feeling lonely? Noooooo!

I Know it’s Not Abandonment, but…

My 21 year old daughter is leaving today, and so is my 18 month old grandaughter. They are moving to a new state to "live an adventure."  They, along her boyfriend want to move somewhere new and see what life somewhere else is like. I get it, I understand that desire. My brain understands, but … Continue reading I Know it’s Not Abandonment, but…