Anniversaries and depression

Today is the first day of spring. It is also my wedding anniversary. I was married 25 years ago today. I was divorced 13 years ago this May. I have been down for a few months for a variety of reasons, but today just added to the mix. I made a very regretful choice that … Continue reading Anniversaries and depression

Flying – nervous? Just the pre-flying!

I am getting ready to drive to the airport. I am not nervous. Hahahaha, that is a joke!!! But I am not toooooo nervous. It's not the flying that make me nervous; it's the packing, making sure I don't forget my medications, figuring out my clothes (this is a business trip), getting to the airport, … Continue reading Flying – nervous? Just the pre-flying!

I Know it’s Not Abandonment, but…

My 21 year old daughter is leaving today, and so is my 18 month old grandaughter. They are moving to a new state to "live an adventure."  They, along her boyfriend want to move somewhere new and see what life somewhere else is like. I get it, I understand that desire. My brain understands, but … Continue reading I Know it’s Not Abandonment, but…

Retreat is NOT the word you imagine…

Hello - I am leaving on a work retreat this morning. People tend to think of work retreats as fun and things to do and camaraderie of each other.  Well that is part of it (dare I say the worst part for me) and the other part is work. WE are developing a strategic plan … Continue reading Retreat is NOT the word you imagine…

BODY IMAGE SUCKS!!!!!!

**This may be a trigger for some. Please be advised and be safe** I hate my body. I know, that is not earth shattering information. Many of us do. But today, I felt absolutely disgusted with my body. I wanted to vomit. If if could have,  I would. I have not work a bathing suit … Continue reading BODY IMAGE SUCKS!!!!!!

Trying to Climb out of the Hole

I had a good weekend with my grandson. His sweet little ways helped me from falling further into the hole. For those moments. I saw my daughter and son-in-law and my other grandson and we enjoyed laughing and a having a meal together. The family togetherness pulled me out of the hole. For that moment. … Continue reading Trying to Climb out of the Hole

Frustrations…and sweetness

I am at work and I get so frustrated. I can’t focus. I have this semi important job, and I can’t focus. I am allll over the place. I know there are a lot of great things about where I work and I try and remember that. I just have a hard time handling the … Continue reading Frustrations…and sweetness