Quotes hit me in different ways at different times. I have a few Facebook pages that I administer for mental illness, Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) specifically. I was looking for some quotes to post this morning, positive ones, when this popped on my screen and felt like it grabbed me and punched me in the gut:
Oh my gosh did this just hit the nail on the head?
I try to explain to my therapist about growing older and how hard it is. We discuss the children leaving and my job being stressful, but I couldn’t put into words what I was really feeling.
Until this very moment.
I am 51, single and very antisocial. I live with my 17 year old son but he works a lot and goes to school and will be gone before I know it.
I have no goals
I feel old
My mental illness sucks the life out of me at times.
I AM waiting for nothing.
I don’t know what to do about this. Is discovering these words a good thing? Will it push me into a different frame of mind? Will I feel more hope than just nothing?
Can somebody help me or do I just have to help myself?
I had to share this quote – immediately before it got lost in the internet. I have to think about these words and decide if I want to make a change, or can make a change.
It makes me so sad.
Thanks for reading.