A slip of the sharp…

**Trigger Warning** I hate when I see trigger warnings. I never know if I want to stay away from the words or I am compelled to read more. I don't want to make my writing too much of a trigger, but we all have different reasons for being upset in our reading, so I thought … Continue reading A slip of the sharp…

Consumed by a Dying Plant

Hello! My office has a cactus - I mean a REALLY BIG cactus. When we moved in I decided to name him Zeus since he has such a prominent spot in our location and is so powerful and almost like a God of Cacti!!!. (see pic below). Most everyone wanted to get rid of him, … Continue reading Consumed by a Dying Plant

When the Moment Sucks!!

One of the hardest things to live with in life and even more so when we struggle with mental illness is the Moment....living with the Moment with the moment plain and simple sucks!!  I try and be mindful of something within that moment, try to talk myself through that moment, or just try and let … Continue reading When the Moment Sucks!!

Upside Down and all Around..

I had to get out of my house today. While I hate being in the chaos of work, I knew that I had to get myself out of the darkness and loneliness of my house. I decided to yes, come into work today!  I had nothing else to do (that wouldn't cost money or time … Continue reading Upside Down and all Around..

Weekend – lonely, depressed, tired? What?

Hell, I hate myself sometimes. I can't figure myself out and I am 51 years old!!!  One day I think I am feeling a bit more positive and the next I have slipped back in my hole. I think I feel more comfortable in my hole yjan other places, but I shouldn't be. I should … Continue reading Weekend – lonely, depressed, tired? What?

The Dread of the Pavement

I used to be almost unable to drive on the freeway. That blinding panic that would take hold when I merged onto the roads brought such fear. Through therapy and medication I have even able to control that utter panic of drive by on freeways Not today. Today I hopped on a freeway in a … Continue reading The Dread of the Pavement

I Can’t Take It!!!!

The NOISE in my office - I can't take it. I work in a very busy place, and a very LOUD place.  My saving grace is the window that I can look out on the world and try to escape in my mind. That I have discovered quiet music on Spotify that can drown a … Continue reading I Can’t Take It!!!!